Saturday, November 19, 2005

Stars n Me

I am sitting by my window and lookin at the sky...
"Do we really become stars...after when we die..?"

How, I wonder this transition takes place..
where do our hands go.. n where goes our face!!

What makes them sparkle or should I say shine..
Weird it may sound to you, but I think the question's fine.

I really wanna know, how can you tell,
Which ones a guy n which ones a Gal..

Do the old people shine brighter
than the younger ones do...
And also if the country, religion
caste n color matter here too!!

I wonder, as behind the clouds..
moon tries to hide,
Is this what happened to GOD
after when he died

Once Again...

Once again the night is new
Once again the stars twinkle
and smile, as I think of you...
Once Again...

Once again i gaze the full moon
Once again as the night sets in
I pray to God to see you soon...
Once Again...

Once again to hear your voice
Once again to feel your touch
and relive those moments of joys...
Once Again...

Once again I am in love with you
Once again I feel like being born
and I feel anew
Once Again...

Those eyes...

I think of a face unseen unknown,
As i close my eyes am no more alone
The face... i dont see but the eyes i do,
Eyes so compelling spellbounding.. ah! those two!!
They are lookin at me i can feel it inside,
As if they can effortlessly read my mind ...
The eyes speak to me all that was unheard,
The compassion that they see me with has also filled my heart.
Filled with love so tangible & innocence like never before ,
An impression of eternal longingness
they bore...

Dark as moonless night they reflect a lovin soul,
Just as diamonds sparkle frm beneath the coal!!

A Dream in the Night....

Dream In The Night..

Lost in confusion and total self bliss
I've found the relation between dream and wish
A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep
But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep.
A dream can bring true the wish never thought
As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought.
But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking
A grasping of things while still in the making.
Now my understanding of wish and of dreams
Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem
But still I'm confused and nothing is clear
Because you are a wish, yet a dream so dear.
With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight
Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night
You've become such a fantasy with realistic tones
I long for your love and time spent alone
Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion
For all their purpose are meager illusion
And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight
I fear the darkness and my continuing fight.
For now its a war - a battle within
A dreadful nightmare which rationality must win
What should I do? Where shall I begin?
Should I ask for your love or remain a dear friend?
In my dreams youre my lover and my world is complete
But in life your a martyr to hope so elite
I've grown to know you and care with a passion
But fear lies within mutual attraction.
If I am to approach you with some indication
Would I strengthen our friendship or cause detonation?
This is the confusion, the struggle, the fight,
Until I am sure, youll remain a dream in the night

Friday, November 18, 2005

Lost You...

I cant bear this night,
its raining again..
every falling drop
reminds me of my pain.

pain in my heart
that fails all my senses
no glee no relief
no palstic smiles no pretences

never in my run
did I stop to realize
was it worth, wat I got,
paying u as a price..

And as the night settles in,
the calmness of nigh reminds me of you
the truth in your eyes
n the love so pure n true

Now I see you gone
u belong to some one else
no more can i claim u
u have had ur wedding bells

You look so happy, though
not as much as u cud've been
but that too is my fault
I was selfish n mean

I deserve you not,
No! not any more
all i can do is.. watch u sail away...
as i stand alone by the shore!!

Your name tells u....

First Letter In Your Name tells something about you ......

Your name begin with : A

U are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You
mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no
patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying
to be coy,cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front

You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You
must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise
you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require
loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being
appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you.

You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are
very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied &

Does your name begin with: B

You give off vibes of lazy sensuality. You enjoy being romanced,
wined, and dined. You are very happy to receive gifts as
an____ex-pression of the affection of your lover. You want to be
pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You are private in your
____ex-pression of endearments, and particular when it comes to love.
You will hold off until everything meets with your approval. You can
control your appetite & feelings. You require new sensations and
experiences. You are willing to experiment.

Does your name begin with: C

You are a very social individual, and it is important to you to have a
relationship. You require closeness and togetherness. You want the
object of your affection to be socially acceptable and good-looking.
You see your lover as a friend and companion. You are very sensual,
Needing someone to appreciate and almost worship you. When this cannot
be achieved, you have the ability to hold out on affection until you
receive this.. You are an expert at controlling your desires and doing

Does your name begin with: D

Once you get it into your head that you want someone, you move full
Steam ahead in your suit. You do not give up your quest easily. You
are nurturing and caring. If someone has a problem, this turns you on.
You are highly passionate, loyal, and intense in your involvements,
sometimes possessive and jealous. You are very sharp & talented often
with sense of humor. When people bother to look deep inside they
cannot resist what they see.You are stimulated by the eccentric and
unusual, having a free and open attitude.

You get jealous of other people and lose your temper ..

Does your name begin with: E

Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener,
you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating
or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and
a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a
good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a
lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart
away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good

sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover

Does your name begin with: F

You are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You
look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once
committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately
passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You
are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favorite fantasy past
time. You can be a very generous lover.

Does your name begin with: G

You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover.

You respond to a lover who is your intellectual equal or superior, and
one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to
reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously.
You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and
responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have
difficulty getting emotionally close to people. You are kind nature &
sweet which is found to be attractive by many.

Does your name begin with: H

You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life ,fun & everything
You seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have
Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your
gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the
commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move
and equally cautious in your involvements often as you believe that
you have to look out for yourself. You are a sensual and patient
lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You
are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not
influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on
you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion
for life.

Does your name begin with: I

You have a great need to be loved, appreciated... even worshiped. You
enjoy luxury, sensuality, and pleasures of the flesh. You like necking
spend hours just touching feeling & exploring. You look for lovers who
know what they are doing. You are not interested in an amateur, unless
that amateur wants a tutor. You are fussy and exacting about having
your desires satisfied. You are willing to experiment and try new
modes of ex-pression.

You bore easily and thus require adventure and change.Your commitments
don't last very long & you often tend to stray. Loyalty is not one of
your strong points. You are more sensual than sexual, but you are
sometimes downright lustful.

Does your name begin with: J

You are blessed with a great deal of physical energy. When used for a
good cause there is nothing to stop you, except maybe that they aren't
always used for the good. (you could dance all night.) You respond to
the thrill of the chase and the challenge of the mating game.You can
carry on great romances in your head. At heart you are a roamer and
need to set out on your own every so often. You will carry on long-
distance relationships with ease. You are idealistic and need to
believe in love.

You have a need to be nurtured deep within.

Does your name begin with: K

You are secretive, self-contained, and shy. You are very sexy,
sensual, and passionate, but you do not let on to this. Only in
intimate privacy will this part of your nature reveal itself. When it
gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the
little tricks of the trade, can play any role or any game, and take
your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the
patience to wait for the right person to come along. You are very
generous & giving, often selfless.

You are kind-natured & sweet, which is found to be attractive by many.

You are a good friend.

Does your name begin with: L

You can be very romantic, attached to the glamour of love. Having a
partner is of paramount importance to you. You are free in your
____ex-pression of love and are willing to take chances, try new
sexual experiences and partners, provided it's all in good taste.
Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually
stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the
relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know
that you're being appreciated. "You require loving, cuddling, wining,
and dining to know that you're being appreciated ".

Does your name begin with: M

You may appear innocent, unassuming and shy; but we know that
Appearances can lie. When it comes to sex, you are no novice but
something of a skilled technician. You can easily go to extremes,
though, running the gamut from instability to boredom with the whole
idea of love. You can be highly critical of you mate, seeking
perfection in both of you. It is not easy to find someone who can meet
your standards. You have difficulty expressing emotions and drawing
lose to lovers. You are often selfish, thinking you are always right
no matter what. You never give in. Winning is your prime

desire- at any cost. You often forget friends and family and you live
for the moment.

Does your name begin with: N

You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you
Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds
barred.You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally
passionate and intense.

You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and
everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be
pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering
your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself,
in your head. You are very imaginative.

Does your name begin with: O

You are very interested in fun activities yet secretive and shy about
your desires. You can re-channel much of your energy into making money
and/or seeking we. You can easily have extended periods of celibacy.
You are a passionate, compassionate lover, requiring the same
qualities From your mate. Love is serious business; thus you demand
intensity, diversity and is willing to try anything or anyone.
Sometimes your passions turn to possessiveness, which must be kept in

Does your name begin with: P

You are very conscious of social properties. You wouldn't think of
Doing anything that might harm your image or Reputation. Appearances

Therefore, you require a good-looking partner. You also require an
intelligent partner. Oddly enough, you may view your partner as your
enemy... a good fight stimulates those vibes. You are relatively free

hang- ups.You are willing to experiment and try new ways of doing
things.You are very social and sensual; you enjoy flirting and need a
good deal of physical gratification.

Does your name begin with: Q

You require constant activity and stimulation. You have tremendous
physical energy. It is not easy for a partner to keep up with you. You
are an enthusiastic lover and tend to be attracted to people because
of their ethnic groups. You need romance, hearts and flowers, and
conversation to turn you on and keep you going.

Does your name begin with: R

You are a no-nonsense, action-oriented individual. You need someone
who can keep pace with you and who is your intellectual equal-the
smarter the better. You are turned on more quickly by a great mind
than by a great body. However, physical attractiveness is not very
important to you. You have to be proved to be worthy for a partner.
You have a need to prove yourself the best. You want feedback on your
performance. You are open, stimulating & romantic.

Does your name begin with: S

For you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically
idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never
loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick
like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very
selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the

You like being the center of attention. You are very caring sensitive,
private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic
thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert.
You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or
any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool
around. You have the patience to wait for the right person to come
along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are a good

Does your name begin with: T

You are very sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. You like
someone who takes the lead. You get turned on by music, soft lights &
romantic thoughts. You fantasize & tend to fall in & out of love soon.

When in love you are romantic, idealistic, mushy & extremely. You
enjoy having your senses & your feelings stimulated, titillated &
teased. You are a great flirt. You can make your relationships fit
your dreams, all in your own head. Once you put your mind to something
you manage to stand by it and see your dreams through. You aren't
very good at expressing your feelings. You like things your own way.
You do not like change, you like to hold on to things. This may not
always be good because if given an opportunity things may develop into
great things.

You work your way to the top. Attention must be given to what others
say because even though you don't want to hear it their advice may
turn out to save your life.

Does your name begin with: U

You are enthusiastic & at your happiest when in love. When not in love
you're in love with love and always looking for someone to adore. You
see romance as challenge. You are a roamer & needs adventure,
excitement freedom. You enjoy giving gifts & looking good. You are
willing to put others feelings above yours.

Does your name begin with: V

You are individualistic & you need freedom, space & excitement. You
wait till you know someone well before committing yourself. Knowing
someone means psyching her/him out. You feel a need to get into
his/her head to see what makes him tick. You are attracted to
eccentric types.

You believe that age is no barrier. You are good at responding to
danger, fear & suspense.

Does your name begin with: W

You are very proud, determined & refuses to take no for an answer when
it come to love. Your ego is at stake all the time. You are romantic,
idealistic, often in love with love itself, not seeing your partner
for who she or he really is. You feel deeply about love & tends to
throw all of your self into a relationship. Nothing is too good for
your lover.

You like playing love games.

Does your name begin with: X

You need constant stimulation because you get bored quickly. You can
handle more than 1 relationship at a time with ease. You can't shut
off your mind.

You can do 2 things at once. You are very talented.

Does your name begin with: Y

You are sensual & very independent. If you can't have it your way, you
will forget the whole thing . You want to control your relationships
which doesn't work out too well. You respond to physical stimulation.

However if you can make money you will give up the pleasures of the
flesh for the moment. You have a need to prove yourself the best. You
want feedback on your performance. You are open, stimulating &

Does your name begin with: Z

You are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You
wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual

You see yourself as a lover's savior.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Twos a crowd.....

I think of u..
n my heart bleeds again,
I can see every drop of my blood
fallin on ur pane !

outside ur window,
u will feel me dear
but u r safe in ur room
not knowing, unaware.

I will bleed to death
it seems so sure to me...
n u wudnt even get to knw
u had long let me free.

You said u free me
frm promises and frm swears
u siad u wanna move on
as i m no more in ur prayers

u asked me to move on too
but the sense of direction, i have lost
i wanted the warmth of ur embrace
but ur heart's but frost

I knw it wont be easy
but now I am game
I m gonna move on
nothings gonna be same

I will have my life
happy n proud
with just me
as now, even two's a crowd!!

i picked up the pen again....

Its been some time...
feels like ages though
the memories in my heart
n the pain u left to grow.

the emptiness of nights
the lonliness of days
the shallowness of eyes
n the sadness of my face!!

Not a soul I remember
I feel trapped in my shell
sound of laughter long forgotten
I am going through hell.

No more do I want to cry
no more I wanna suffer this pain
I want to let myself free
So I picked up the pen once again.....

Ketan Pandit

You see him for first
& u'll take him for sixteen...
Its all thanks to his
boyish looks and body so lean..( [;)] things have changes a lil now)

He was our senior
met him in first sem
though sittin with all jerks..
he looked different frm them

Had long hair
that complimented his face
and when he started talkin
yeah! he boosted of sm grace

hes got an expressive pair of eyes
that are big n brown
n fr always he's smiling
'least i havent seen him frown

Nice is his family
his mum so sweet
whenever we been to his place
we always had a treat...(yummm... those chhole bhature!!... thankoo aunty:">)

Now he's in Pune(i wrote this two yrs bak... :D)
completing his post grad
still remember those times togather
that we all had!!!