Friday, November 06, 2009
What is happiness???
Is it the fleeting emotion you experience when you are doing something you are good at or when you achieve something you thought you were never capable of? Is it the feeling you get when you are assured of not falling, not failing or is the state of mind you achieve when things go your way?
Is happiness a temporary hormonal reaction your body/mind/heart (I am still not sure which part of "us" has the sensory receptors of happiness same way as I don't know where exactly on my tongue i feel sour and chilly hot) experiences under certain specific/general but favorable circumstances!!
I searched Wikipedia (where I think you can find anything, even the lost left of your blue socks), and this is what the wiki-guy has to say about Happiness-
Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy. A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological and biological approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.
Philosophers and religious thinkers often define happiness in terms of living a good life, or flourishing, rather than simply as an emotion. Happiness in this older sense was used to translate the Greek Eudaimonia, and is still used in virtue ethics.
To understand this I guess I would require Dictionary.com and more Wikipedia :|.
After "wiki-ing" I decided to seek my answer in the quotes of some famous men/women. Most of them, as per my understanding, weren't sure either! (I am not trying to draw any corollaries here .. :/).However the words did leave a smile on my face...happiness?? I dont know.
I could still not find a convincing answer to "What is happiness?"
Is happiness, as some Unknown guy, said,
Happiness is not having what you want. It is wanting what you have. or is it dwellings of soul
(one more part of human anatomy I dont know the location of, but its supposed to be somewhere inside us, where.. no one knows)...
Is happiness the conviction that you are loved or is it lack of self doubt, discontentment, anxiety, grief, jealousy and so on...
What is happiness after all....
Sunday, August 30, 2009
in search of light,
Awaiting the dawn
in this dark night.."
These are not my lines...and I dont know who wrote them... but yes I heard them from Purab Kohli (and also Sandhya Mridul) ... thats all for the credits!
Anyway, these four lines... spoken out loud in two languages really left a mark on me...
I read them inthe subtitles, I heard them loud and clear with deep emphasis on every single word... and yes! it fits!
For almost two years I have been looking for something... and even though I have found a few things, I am not sure if they are what I was looking for. So my search continues.....
The strange thing is, I realize that the certain something, I was looking for is not what I have achieved after all this insane effort slash hard-work and this realization more than often comes right after i have blown the victory bigul...and so it turns out, what should have been "neighbours envy owners pride" is just something owner has disowned... I just wouldnot desire it anymore as if I dint ever want it!!!!
I reason myself by calling them underachievements... but if they really are underachievements then I shoulnot regret letting them go? That means, this post shouldnot exist!! But it does!! Its as if I wont have it but I wont have it gone either!
I believe I am cursed... I am cursed to be waiting... to be wanting... to not know what I want or what I am waiting for..
But one thing I think is not part of this evil spell cast on me is the drive I have to keep wanting and keep waiting...
I once read somewhere, 'we all were born with reasons...' ... and to some extent I have found one of the reasons for my existence... but I guess there are more... and I am waiting!!!!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
i want to be part of a play,
i want to live on a mountain,
i want to dive into a river, bathe in waterfall,
i want to make and play music,
i want to be stranded on a railway station and fall in love,
i want to dance under the stars in a snowy night,
i want to walked barefoot on wet sand with a hand in my hand,
i want to wear a white gown and look beautiful,
i want to be swept off my feet by my prince on a stallion,
i want to hear my name in 'his' heartbeats,
i want to be held with love, for what would seem like eternity,
i want to laugh so much that it'd make my eyes tear,
i want to have a song written for me,
i want someone to tell me how i complete him,
i want to have a ring of petal on my finger,
i want to be proposed,
i want to be looked upto,
i want to be successful in whatever i do
i want to love my job,
i want to have a proud lover,
i want to be kissed,
Friday, July 17, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Have you ever experienced this, that, when you keep looking at something for too long while paying less attention... you lose focus and that thing either starts blurring or, kind of, multiplies... I suggest pay attention... that thing may just be a solution or a problem!!!
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
All right, so I am finally doing this. I had decided and in a way vowed never to really write about "how my days been" kinda post here, as in on this blog(yeah!! stalker... I got more blog(s)), because that would make me a serious blogger, which by the way I am not (check archives for evidence).
My day, sucked... not entirely but in a way it did entirely. There were small parts where i smiled and laughed...(hence, "the not entirely") but since these parts either happened in my head, or in a sarcastic manner, I say "in a way it did entirely".
I wouldnt really bore you with, details, but I will definitely share the part where I met my own ghost, from the past.
After a really long time I was having these imaginary converstaions both in my head and in the air!. I was imagining weird stuff the same way I used to when I was in college.... I had completely forgotten about that part of my personality..... But it came back to me, both in a good and a bad fashion. I say good, because I was funny up there(in my head) I invented jokes and scenarios which are definitely a comic-strip kind of funny, maybe a sitcom level too...and bad because I was mean and as a certain someone would put it 'non-sarcatically irritating and teasingly pinchy'!
Well I know I am not sweetest person on earth, but I had been rather sweet sober and very docile for a long time now(except for my fight with almost every one in my family, till yesterday... and for records, I wasnot entirely the 'only' culprit).
Anyway, I was watching 'How I Met Your Mother' (Season 2, first time) and I realized I was feeling different. I wanted to act weird, and I did, I wanted to write, which too I did, and have a fight, well! I had already done that but well! I continued with it, so hell! yeah I did that too.
I am still feeling strangely different and I dont know what I would want to do next... but I really hope its better that the last thing I wanted to do... And for you, dear reader(/stalker).. if I continued to want to write, i might just b back tomorow... so do watch the space(/keep stalking)!!!!
BTW, naah!! I am not doing it again.. so move on read the next blog you find(/keep stalking... I dont have many stalkers ;) )
P.S. Although I know I was very mean, selfish, insensitive and 'non-sarcatically irritating and teasingly pinchy' to a certain someone, I really feel that i did the right thing!! You say - "How rude!!!" and I say "mind your own god! damn business"
Saturday, April 25, 2009
...if you'd ever asked me and I was not-drunk and not-stoned and not-a-lot-of-other-things, I'd probably tell you this too was among my ideas of picture-perfect romance
2. I think I can still rhyme.
3. Indian Ocean should really hire me for writing lyrics for their "songs???"
4. My phone hasnt rung in last 12 hours.
5. I have to reduce my weight else shop more clothes
6. I dont want anyone getting married anymore.
7.This blog has a middle finger which it is pointing at you right now.
8.Baloo is a great dog better than dodo but he will die, soon.
9.I dont have a career.
10.I dont have INR 50,00,000 (fifty fugging facs) to get CMU stamp in my resume.
11.I dont fit into the jeans I bought last to last month.
12.And I don't even friggin' care.
13.My cars number plate is hanging.
14.If you do not have a spine I could lend you mine.
15. Mohit Chauhan better be good looking.
16.This blog has no title.
17.But this blog has a butt.*jiggle jiggle*